Doubts

Okay so it's been about two weeks and a lot has changed. Basically, since my last post I've completed both orientation week and week 1 of uni. While it's been nice to have structure and to feel like I'm using my brain again, and it's refreshing to be around so many new people, I'm starting to feel like what I'm doing just isn't right for me. I mean law? What kind of person commits to a near six year law degree when they have no intention nor desire to become a lawyer? Well, it turns out I'm that kind of person and it needs to stop. So these two weeks have not been a complete waste, I did figure out that I no longer want to study law. But what do I want to study?

I must admit that I have been enjoying the Creative Industries half of my double degree, especially my drama subject. I am almost certain that I want to be in the theatre/film industry, however almost is not quite good enough for me. I suppose I've had somewhat of an epiphany. It took a little while for this thought to form in my head but basically it was this: Why am I sacrificing my time, money, and emotional stability for something I know I don't want instead of figuring out what I actually do want? Groundbreaking stuff I know. You would think this thought would have come to me a lot sooner. But nevertheless it has come and fortunately before the census date.

So here's the plan: I'm going to defer for six months, work, play, see what kind of theatre/drama stuff I can experiment with and go from there. This is the only option I have thought of that has given me some piece of mind so I'm hoping that's a good sign.

One piece of advice for anyone out there who is trying to figure out what they want to do with their lives - don't do something simply because you can. It may feel really cool and impressive to tell people you're doing some really prestigious course but how much cooler would it be to tell people that you are following your dreams and are the happiest you've ever been? Don't fall into the OP trap - just because you got a 1 doesn't mean you have to do medicine. Be the person who gets a 1 and does dance or photography or game design. It doesn't matter what it is, just make sure it's something you want, and if you don't know what you want then definitely figure it out before diving into a law degree.